Life
Not much has happened on the poker front since my last post. I have played just three non-descript medium length sessions and am slightly down.
Personally, not much has happened either. I am feeling a touch of melancholy I suppose and this is more of a diary post to get it out of me I think. I am not one to suffer much in the way of dramatic downs. At least not in a long time. However, I do sometimes wish I were more able to maintain a feeling of confidence, and belief. I mean that in a really personal way. I have swings like anybody else, and right now I am in a negative swing mentally. It is not a huge negative, don't get me wrong, but I have a feeling of tired about me that I find annoying and difficult to shake. It affects me at an attitudinal level. As in, right now I have a bad attitude about things. Easily irritated, annoyed etc..I want to just push through it, even though I know that rest is probably the better course. A vacation would be nice! That might be part of the problem though, as I know that will not happen on any level for a few months. There will be no time off work for me straight thru until June with the exception of maybe a couple extra days off around Easter when I will not get scheduled. I have worked night shifts for many years now and in my current job for five years. The shift aspect of the work has its benefits but the irregular hours does play havoc with the body and mind. There are times when I wish I could leave this job behind. There are other ways to make money in this world but for now I am destined to work for this company, in this capacity. Perhaps, one day, I will find a better way to make a living. I'm not saying I have a terrible job. It is not. It just is not something that is gratifying. As I approach 40, I wonder if I will ever be in a position to live and work in a more gratifying position.
Hmm, well, thanks for letting me get some of that off my chest. I know there is a lot of things going right in my life. I also know I need to refocus on that and continue to look for ways to enhance our experience. Life is quite a balancing act isn't it!! Don.
Personally, not much has happened either. I am feeling a touch of melancholy I suppose and this is more of a diary post to get it out of me I think. I am not one to suffer much in the way of dramatic downs. At least not in a long time. However, I do sometimes wish I were more able to maintain a feeling of confidence, and belief. I mean that in a really personal way. I have swings like anybody else, and right now I am in a negative swing mentally. It is not a huge negative, don't get me wrong, but I have a feeling of tired about me that I find annoying and difficult to shake. It affects me at an attitudinal level. As in, right now I have a bad attitude about things. Easily irritated, annoyed etc..I want to just push through it, even though I know that rest is probably the better course. A vacation would be nice! That might be part of the problem though, as I know that will not happen on any level for a few months. There will be no time off work for me straight thru until June with the exception of maybe a couple extra days off around Easter when I will not get scheduled. I have worked night shifts for many years now and in my current job for five years. The shift aspect of the work has its benefits but the irregular hours does play havoc with the body and mind. There are times when I wish I could leave this job behind. There are other ways to make money in this world but for now I am destined to work for this company, in this capacity. Perhaps, one day, I will find a better way to make a living. I'm not saying I have a terrible job. It is not. It just is not something that is gratifying. As I approach 40, I wonder if I will ever be in a position to live and work in a more gratifying position.
Hmm, well, thanks for letting me get some of that off my chest. I know there is a lot of things going right in my life. I also know I need to refocus on that and continue to look for ways to enhance our experience. Life is quite a balancing act isn't it!! Don.
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